I think I forgot to anticipate the crash that comes after making the WOW deadline.
Maybe because I haven’t experienced it for five years, maybe because I thought having successfully navigated the creation and touring of two exhibitions might have made it less intense, maybe because ovarian retirement is holding the reigns right now. But last Thursday I physically and mentally crashed. Lower back issues I’ve been dealing with got out of control, meaning I couldn’t do what I normally do, in any way. Lying down and feeling sorry for myself, unmotivated to create and wondering if my weightlifting life was now over, I sunk further into the doldrums, wondering what was the point of creating anything, everything was so fucked up in this completely crazy world, where I no longer know what should be believed, or is even real.
I think it’s a timely reminder though, to slow down the frantic pace that life seems to have ramped up to. I always feels as though there just aren’t enough hours – I guess though that there never will be. I need some slow activities to contrast with the high energy ones – in fact I’ve just checked out my first batch of books from the library since COVID put an end to that habit. For someone who finds it hard to get the time to read the magazine I actually write for and love, this is going to take some work. Much as I find the internet brilliant for research, I admit that I can find myself endlessly scrolling, wasting time and getting over-stimulated. Currently I'm trying to figure out how I feel about generative AI.....
My exhibition DistoMorph is showing at Gympie Art Gallery until the 10th May, as you can see in this article in the Gympie Times.